I’m moving into a new phase now. I don’t have much to say about today.
I had an individual counseling session and we spent most of time just discussing how we’re gonna tell our kids on Sunday and the things that will come up for me as an individual as I learn about myself.
The pain is now starting to subside, I’m healing for sure, I anticipate other weird feelings but my friendship with the ex is already getting more communicative and peaceful in a more genuine sort of way. I’m trying to just focus on that and the kids.
I’m able to focus at work now MUCH better, I’m staying on track with exercise and good eating and my appetite is finally starting to come back, which is a good sign for me. I’m not feeling so angry and resentful anymore. I’m also starting to line up some activities for myself that I enjoy doing, day trips, photography, playing drums again, and regrouping with some old friends I’ve met throughout my career to get my feet back on the ground and out of the tar pit of grief. How’s that for a run-on sentence?
More tomorrow.
